Honouring my Menopause Journey: From Inner Summer to Inner Autumn
I have a confession to make:
PERI-MENOPAUSE has been hitting me very hard for the last 6 months. In fact, I believe I’m actually right between the transition between Peri-menopause and Menopause. And what a journey it has been so far… I’ve been dealing not only with a mountain of hot flushes, constant mood changes, depression, and a constant desire to withdraw into my dark cave of loneliness and sit in stillness, not giving a f*** about anything other than being in total surrender and finding inner peace.
Sometimes I lay down on the floor of my lounge and cover my belly with rose petals, essential oils and rose quartz crystals, listening to inspiring, calming guided meditations. Other times, I dance around the kitchen floor listening to Led Zeppelin so very loud my neighbours must think I’m going mad, which I am… Indulging in those deep soul emotions, that ecstasy pulsating through my body, mind, and soul, so much is the energy coming through the pores of my skin. Other times, I just want to cry, so much so, rivers of endless tears as I’m dealing with this separation from Inner Summer to Inner Autumn.
My menopause cycle has arrived a lot earlier than expected in my life… jezzzzz, ‘I won’t bleed ever again in this lifetime.’ Pause, breathe, surrender, and cry again…
MENOPAUSE, that hidden ‘monster’ emerging from the depths of my womb to scare and frighten the hell out of me, it’s here to stay and it’s frightening both for the good and the bad. Depending on the day.
MENOPAUSE: It’s here to make me feel the depth of my wounds, to reveal what’s holding me back, what’s hurting, and what needs healing and release. It’s here to remind me that I must allow transformation to take place, I must cocoon into my caterpillar stage and curl in solitude.
The inevitable and honourable transition into CRONE, into POWER, into TRUE WISDOM… has knocked on my door quite early, and before all of this unfolding process gives birth to a new form and a new me, I must declutter, I must surrender, I must pause, I must heal and I must accept I’m changing, a lot.
I’m becoming more authentically me, I’m growing in both power and intuition, hence experiencing the many deaths, the letting goes, the emotional turbulence, the despair, the extreme sensitivity, the thin-skinned, and demolitions, so many demolitions… yet I can already feel new sprouts of life on the surface of my skin.
Simultaneously, I can also experience great moments of bliss, joy, creativity, deep insights, spiritual connection and clear intuitive wisdom. I started to ‘see‘ much more and in much greater depth; it can even be scary at times.
Nevertheless, the call for withdrawal is very consistent alongside the need for ritual, for nature, for stillness, for nourishment, for divine connection and contemplation is a constant necessity I can’t avoid…
I believe that if we women take the time to process and honour this powerful and delicate menopause initiation, it can be one of the most incredible and transformative phases in a woman’s life. This is why I’m preparing to step out of the closet and be of service to help other women during this magnificent process and cyclical change.
Watch this space for wonderful and inspiring upcoming news & events to support women through stages of Menopause!!
I’m preparing to hold space for women to be held safe while processing, releasing, healing, and preparing to welcome and embody her inner Queen out from the depths of her sacred womb. To help her claim her majestical throne of power, her authority, her purpose, to finally step into authenticity with no guilt or shame or self-sabotage.
To finally wear her new royal gown with such honour and pride, her light will be astoundingly bright, like those of the stars. To wear her aged skin, wrinkles, grey hairs with dignity and become an example of truth and love both towards herself and for other women to inspire and aspire to also embody their true selves in total surrender and acceptance.
A time when She values her feminine essence in such high regard, a time where she uses her wisdom, intuition, and power to light the next way forward, into a new form, a new path, birthing a new woman into life. And what a woman She is, WILD, WHOLE & AWESOME
Claudia Aurora
7 April 2024
